nothing in particular brings me to say all this, as everything in my life has been moving steadily forward since the new year began. that being said, the next few weeks will be some of the busiest weeks of my life so far, with an entire pile of key decisions waiting to be made on my part. a lot of the details i won't get into, but basically 3-4 months of planning is being put into play right about now and i have a lot of work to do to fulfill the expectations i set out of myself this year. put it this way - Kayce is THE team for 2008.
one thing i will go into right now is how i feel about relationships & friendships at the moment. i've been absolutely blessed in my life, having met just the right collective of unique individuals who've shaped me into the person i am today. i've had an amazing myriad of experiences over the course of my life to date, not a lot of which i truly regret.
that being said, i still look back at these experiences constantly, not necessarily to dwell on the negatives or to bask in better days gone by, but simply to learn and re-learn different levels of life lessons i've picked up. i love growing as a person, a note perhaps reflected by my ever-growing appreciation for various genres of music.
interestingly, one of the more recent revelations i've had is the fact that i've been absolutely spoiled in terms of love & friendship. i've had the most amazing friends at my side, and i was one of those rare, romantic cases where my first serious relationship came out of a Hollywood movie. i met my best friend at the tender age of 10 when she first moved to Canada by buying her an ice-cream cone randomly one lunch-time, as she hadn't made any friends yet.
little did i know that that little girl's smile would grow to be the source of my greatest of inspirations, and that she would become my first love some years later. since then, she's become my best friend, and i've had the opportunity to get to know several other special individuals whose warmth, compassion & understanding have been the key to everything i now believe in - a seeming overstatement that in reality is the epitome of the opposite.
with all this in mind, i realize that i have a unique opportunity to make the most of my life in inspiring and touching a new generation of hearts, minds and souls - simply by doing what i love. i have already been fortunate enough to have had the most beautiful of girls, both inside and out, give me everything i could ever ask for in life. and now, at age 21, i don't need another relationship, or another girl to complete me the way my heart aches in shameless desire for.
truth be told, part of me longs to have someone to hold and love and cherish. again. but this isn't the time for that, and i will only look within - the eye of the tiger - to continue moving forward with the vision & vigilance i need in order to leave my mark on the world.
a bold statement, you think to yourself - why did he write all this now? the light shines down the path to continued self-discovery only at 3am? well, this is what comes with the territory of being me - my passion inspires me - and regardless of whether i make the most rational of choices at times, my heart drives me to do what feels right. and this, a rare moment of self-indulgent reflection sprinkled into one of the most hectic periods of my life, feels just right.
and now, after i respond to about 3 dozen emails, i'm off to bed for 4 hours before i get up for my 2nd of 3 nine-to-five workdays at a product distribution company uptown. what am i doing there aside from making (good) money? you'll find out soon enough.. til then, live the life you love and love the life you live.
3:26am, a day in the life.
1 comments:
PROPS man!
keep ur work comin,
hoping to hear some of ur new music soon...
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