Its gutter, and I spell it with the 'G' I stole from "get-the-f*ck-up" // 04.20.08 Update

when i sat down to write this entry, the first thing that popped into my head was "wow, i've been up to a LOT lately" - then i realized, when is this ever not the case? we've had some amazing weather in Toronto since Friday (almost time for the beach?! yessssssss!) and everything is continuing to look up.. the Kayce Staff Forums were finally put up again, and we're almost done all of the boring administrative-related groundwork we have to do this year.. after that, it's onto this year's exciting new projects - our first individual feature sites for our top handful of girls as well as a couple of other sites that the other Kayce Models will be contributing to..

i'm off to Vancouver again in less than a month, so again, things will be hectic all the way through to mid-June or so - what can i say? i love my life.. not to mention, it's the 2008 NBA Playoffs and i gotta get my hoops fix or i go a little nutty.. not too much else i want to get into for now, except that we'll be posting more about our recent & upcoming updates as we get into it.. and before i forget, HAPPY 4-20. haha.. i haven't touched it in months and i won't touch it today, but i'm thinking about 90% of my friends in Vancouver will be "enjoyin the fresh air" today.. so.. i'm thinkin bout y'all.. haha.

anyways, i'm pumped right now coz it's time for my workout - i skipped yesterday's because i was way too sore from the previous session.. did core exercises yesterday though, and i think i'm closing in on my goals in general, right in time to head out to the beach =P did i mention i was excited to go to the beach? haha..

random note i'll throw in here while we're on the subject of working out.. i've been asked at least a dozen times in the past few weeks how i've built so much muscle mass & cut down on body fat in such a short period of time.. well, to be honest, i use every single workout as a release from all the things that are usually on mind (work, upcoming plans) and as such, every time i'm struggling with a final rep and my muscles are on the verge of dying, all i really have to do is think about the unpleasantness that was the aftermath of my last relationship and BAM, i get through that exercise.

nothing pushes me harder than pain does.. and while i know most things come easier to me than they do for most others, that only means i need to work even harder to get where i want to be..

i'm used to getting what i want - call me spoiled, call me cocky, or call me lucky: i'm probably all of the above.

12:24pm, a day in the life..

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“Life's not a bitch, life is a beotch
who keeps the villagers circling the marketplace
out searching for the G-spot...”
- Aesop Rock, “Night Light”

i'm taking it back today, revisiting one of my favourite songs by quite possibly the most uniquely talented writer in the rap world today.. you probably won't have heard of him, and 90% of you probably won't like his songs because he raps "weird" - or so i've been told.. whatever the case, you can't deny his genius with writing and originality with flow - he speaks his mind, unrestrained, in every song, with a captivating delivery that forces you to pay attention - even if you "don't think its hiphop" or whatever you radio-brainwashed "urban music genre" types are going to say.. can't imagine what i could possibly mean by that? go listen to some of his songs.. Aesop Rock is the dopest. period.

[Aesop Rock]
Night Light suckas..
Put one up shackle me, not clean logic procreation
I did invent the wheel, in a previous generation
While the triple sixers lassos keep angels roped in the basement
I locate my old halos and pass em out to the pavement
Y'all catch a 30-second flash frame
Dirty cooperative Neptune bloom head-trip split
Fantastic! Fathom the splicing of major league low lifes
With anti hero earthworm mentality (Godzilla!)
I paste my game to zero all completion
See a cretin's still a cretin even speakin' altered moniker
American nightmare lost in the monitor
I'll hold the door open so you can stagger through
Then ten berserk and bread cookies in after you
It's gutter and I spell it with the 'G' I stole from "Get the fuck up"
Noise crutch stolen wretched refuse of my teaming dumb luck
Still I promise temperance storm breed still bleeding Amish
See the freaks sucked out the wattage while 3 bears invade the cottage
And I can't sleep now
Yeah, the police'll laugh
You won't be laughing when your covered wagons crash
You won't be laughing when you're hosted by the ghost of Christmas past
You won't be laughing when your blow up doll's
got a headache and won't give up the ass
And I lay my kicks to rest when I'm impressed
So I staple-gun them to my feet
This origami dream is beautiful: pull the tail watch the wings flap
But you really can't do a thing with that

All I ever wanted was to pick apart the day
Swallow up the pieces
Spit 'em at your species
Beached at the city of lost barnacles and leeches
Night-light got me when the daylight went to evening
Night (Light) Day (Light) x8

I'm pretty sure I got a pulse.. plus
We Shimmy cross the centerfold, and our night light engulfed
Just let me keep the crumbs (Please)
With seven deadly stains
To hear the plane to crystal conscious
The results a dead-beat trying to make a dollar off a bomb threat (OK)
Lift me to activism chain activate wild-style Pluto orbit
Set a course then push the button
I swallow spores born by the laws of a morbid glutton
I can spot a drunk battalion by the Charlie Chaplin waddle
Zig zag and zig 'em again before they can pull a badge out
But I lash out
Another thick installment of one night in Gotham like
"Houston we have a problem"
They're buffing the trains the same days the graffiti writers bomb 'em
Who split how many freaks on box cuts of a high road bellow?
Heads ripped! Watch red bricks turn yellow
I'll try to meet the wizard
But a tailgating tin-man holding an oil can
won't let a hermit crab break in his new shell-toes
Life's not a bitch, life is a beotch
who keeps the villagers circling the marketplace
out searching for the G-spot
Maybe she didn't feel y'all shared any similar interests
Or maybe you're just an asshole; maybe I'm just an asshole
Kiss the speaker wire, seaming swashbuckler or pagan thresh hold
Stomach full of diner food
Wings span cast black upon views
Here to help release the rabbit hounds or pick apart your mood
I got this friend of polar nature and it's all peace
When I seek similar stars but can't sit at the same feast
Metal Captain!
This cat is asking if I've seen his bit of lost passion
I told him: "Yeah" I gave him one last smoke and smashed him

All I ever wanted was to pick apart the day
Swallow up the pieces
Spit 'em at your species
Reachin' the city of lost barnacles and leeches
Night-light got me when the daylight went to evening
Night (Light) Day (Light)..